My diary entries have tapered off. I know, I'm sorry. Wait a minute who am I apologizing to? I have no regular readers...
I miss my best friend a lot. Oh great, now I've gone ahead and done it! I'm all funked out. On a whim, I am dialing her cellphone. There... is... no... answer. I don't think I am leaving a message. Nope. No message. I just hung up. It's bizarre cause I miss her, but... I don't know, I feel like she is turning away from me. Growing away. I never imagined it would be that way. Ever since my neighbor and I split ways, she just doesn't see me as much. I'm sure some of it is my fault too though. It's easier for me to spend time with J than most friends of mine really. But school is ending. You know, I think I have almost everybody's presents figured out except my best friend and my boyfriend. [The cramps are starting again. Are cramps a sign of an ulcer?]
You know, I am sitting here meditating on everything, and I am noticing everyone has become quite distant lately. That makes me sad. Ok I think I am going to take The Conformist into bed with me. Bye. now.