What is it exactly about the holidays? They always cause these weird mixed emotions- excitement and happiness and yet this inevitable gloominess. J and I just can't get things together. Not that we're fighting today but I just don't feel right around him. Does that make sense? And he's not trying to be weird but he's not trying to be nice either. Or maybe I'm just expecting too much.
I went shopping today. I did some returns and some exchanges. Most of it was christmas shopping. I got one of my brothers' gift. And one of my grandmothers. And my cousin. And one of J's little cousins. And his grand aunt. Oh and a shipment from Hot Topic came in so that takes care of K and O's birthday gifts. So let's see, that leaves me with: my mom (half done thanks to ebay), my dad, my other brother, my mil (watching on ebay), my fil, my sil (watching on ebay), my other grandmother, my grandfather, my aunt (waiting for it to go on sale), my uncle, both little cousins, both of J's uncles, his other little cousins, zorra, and that's it?
I am so behind in school these days. I'm so frustrated with myself! That's not how it should be! I'm so close to graduating I guess I just don't care. But I do. I beat myself up over it. Tomorrow I'm going to do some major reading and see if I can't catch up. Or at least get a little closer.
I did enjoy myself working on my SM's (secret meeper) handmade gift. It's supposed to be an ornament but I saw her survey and I HAD to make her something. So we'll see if I have the time, and money, to make an ornament too. But I know she's going to really appreciate this other thing. And I can't delve into it because some meepers read this and that can't be good. ;) Sorry meeps.
The holidays are here early this year. I was in NY & Co. the other day getting clothes for a meeting and they had their xmas music playing. Same thing today at Lane Bryant and Bath & Body Works. It may have been playing in other stores but I have always been pretty good at tuning that nonsense out. I think the difference is those three stores were selling xmas albums. Everyone seems to be out shopping early. This is the first year I'm doing the early shopping thing. But I have to. We'll most probably be in New Jersey for Christmas and I'd rather haul up the Christmas gifts then have to shop for them there last minute. No way. No thank you. I have two magazines to look through. Hooray. I love magazines. I've got Harper's Bazaar and Elle Decor.
Oh you know the happiest part of my day? I bought new sheets for my bed today. And a matching duvet cover set. But the sheets! I'll enjoy the duvet cover when I get the down comforter for Christmas from my mom. But the sheets! You have to understand we got a queen size bed when we moved in here in June (?) and the only sheets we had were these WORN out hand me downs from my mom. They were tearing at some of the corners and were so shrunken they kept popping off the bed in the middle of the night. So we've been using those. Well today I decided enough was enough. And I bought these really pretty sheets. The most expensive sheets I've ever bought by the way, $40. I've never really had to buy sheets. And when I have I've bought the cheap-o ones. So I was really happy with the pattern and the colors and I get home and I put away all the Christmas presents I bought to beat my husband's inevitable bitching. And then I took the sheet set into the bedroom and got to work. When I opened them I was SO surprised. They were slightly sateeny looking. And SO soft. OMG I was shocked. I don't know if it's special or not but they're 100% cotton, 360 thread count. SO soft. And they have the elastic all the way around so it really HUGS the mattress. You know with cheap sheets how it has the elastic only on the corners? UGH. I was so happy! I can't wait to sink into them fresh from a bath. And I can't wait to get the down comforter and wrap it in its duvet cover and pull that thing over me. I was tempted to wait till we got the comforter but I figured enough with the shitty sheets already. And I'm SO happy. Isn't it funny how something so seemingly small can make someone so happy?
J and M spent the whole day together. They need that. I'm tired of J complaining M doesn't seem so attached to him. The three of us had some good quality snuggle time on the bed earlier. M and I teamed up and tickled J lots. We got him good. M gets so riled up when we do that LOL.
RGH. I am being summoned.
Good night.