Must remind self when it gets so so so very painful, is it really worth erasing it and starting all over again? Or erasing and trying to move forward risking another collision...
It's a beautiful movie. So you know. A little fucked up and hard to stick to but stick to it, ok? It's worth it in the end. Which, oddly enough, is the whole message of the movie.
There is a big difference between moving on and forgetting it all. A difference between healing and pretending it never happened. It's crazy isn't it? Weird simple concepts are so hard to deal with in real life situations.
P.S. About the thursday nite fight. He was being so sweet and kind to me this weekend. At Saturday I just asked him if and what he remembered. He says he remembers nothing. He was black-out drunk which I was figuring when I went in there to apologize and he didn't respond. It presented some big issues like his driving home so ridiculously intoxicated but these are issues better handled when a person is not on a whole other plane of understanding. Or at least, that's what I'm figuring.
