I've been awful and I understand. I just feel like I'm being smooshed or something. So much crap is going on and I just want to abandon everything and cloister myself off. This online course is turning out to be a disaster. And not because of me but because of technical issues. And then there's the fact I owe the hospital $4800 for Mario's birth. And all of these really big events are coming up really fast. And I'm just really stressed about everything. So many deadlines and I haven't done a thing about any of it. I'm sick and tired of doing things. I HAVE to go to the post office today.